Choices

So yesterday, once again God revealed to me my weaknesses. Of course, I know that He does this in total love, so that I can move forward in being more like Him and less like me.

This is the story. I have been keeping Liam (3) for some time for Miranda now. It is a beautiful trading system that we have. I keep Liam one day a week, and she keeps Mia one day a week. Yesterday I also kept Meris (5 months) for Miranda. She is a precious little baby, and I was pretty excited about having her here with me. Only one thing...I forgot how much time a baby takes. Not because they really need anything...they just need you. Meris wanted to be held or for me to be in the room with her. This is reasonable for a baby...I just forgot. Mia, wild as she is, is very independent and plays alone well. I had not mentally prepared for not getting anything done. I was feeling a bit overwhelmed by a mouthy daughter and a baby who needed me (Liam was really an angel), when Faith called me. She called about a RIHOP t-shirt. God had Faith call me to clue me in on my weakness and to help me see it and change my perspective. When I asked Faith to pray for me because I was frustrated, she asked me why I was babysitting. Was I doing this to bless Miranda? My answer was yes. I spouted off how I could not believe what saints Nadia, Elizabeth, Miranda and other moms of babies and toddlers/preschoolers are to be able to handle this. She says to me, "That is why they need your help." I hung up with her, and suddenly ( you know those kinds of moments...when you feel like a hammer hit you in the back of the head), I realized that I had been completely and totally SELF-CENTERED! I had been SO worried about what Amy could not do, about how this effected Amy's day that I missed that I was doing this to be a loving friend and a servant. I did not for one minute think, "I am so glad Miranda has this time to work with no distractions" or "I am so fortunate to be able to love these children".

God uses simple life experiences and His friends, like Faith, to reveal our weaknesses. I am so glad that He showed me in the privacy of my home. I see this as His precious mercy. He does not want me to stay self-centered. He wants me to CHOOSE to be a kind and loving servant. Oh how I love Him.

Not So Good At This

So, it seems that I am not so good at the whole blogging thing. I think that if I can make it a habit, I will do well and love it. Of course, that can be said about most things in my life. Exercise, consistent quiet time with Jesus, "school" time with Mia...these are but a few among many possibilities.

So, since the last time, I have been sick. I had/have a nasty sinus infection. I have not been this sick in 5 1/2 years, and let me tell you, I do not like it one bit. My precious Mama let me stay with her Saturday night through Monday afternoon. I know I could have stayed all week if I had wanted to do that. She took care of me on Sunday, fixing my meals, buying me soy ice "cream" for my sore throat, and most importantly, taking care of Mia. I think it is pretty much a true fact that I have the best Mama in the whole world.

Ok...so I posted. I hope my dear friend, Robbie, that this is sufficient for today. I promise to try to do this more frequently. I think a week of working ( 4 days in one week..which is unusual for me) and being sick got me very off track. I feel like my whole life has been a bit undone. I am looking forward to going back to my routine tomorrow. I am most glad to be able to go back to RIHOP tomorrow. Oh, how I have grown to love the prayer room. I feel almost an ache to sit in that room and hang out with Jesus. I love hanging out with Him everywhere I go, but there is something special about the way we hang out at RIHOP.

Off to watch Anastasia with Mia, again. We borrowed it from the library. I am guessing we will watch it 20 times before it goes back.