He is serious

I am learning new things about God all of the time. This is a pretty exciting thing. I guess what I am finding ,though, is that He is serious about stuff. I realize that sounds ridiculous. I mean, really, what else would God be? I don't mean He doesn't joke..I think He does. I am certain He has joked with me. What I mean is that when He reveals things to me, when He speaks to me, when He offers me solutions...He is serious. When I offer things to Him, like I recently did, He is serious...so He takes me seriously.

In moments of being touched by the beautiful heart of the Holy Spirit, I cry out to Him offering to Him all of myself, all of my heart, all of my life, all of my relationships, all of my possessions...everything. He listens..and He takes me seriously. Don't think that if you offer it to Him in a moment of emotion that He thinks you are kidding. I have the feeling that He waits for those moments..those moments when we give Him parts of our hearts that we have held on to..and then He jumps in with joy to begin working on our hearts...with our permission. I just think sometimes we offer things to Him not really expecting Him to take us seriously..almost like we are offering Him lip service. But He is truth...He is righteousness..He is the lover of our souls and the maker of our hearts. He knows what we need and He knows that even if we aren't totally serious at the moment that we offer our brokenness to Him that we still need Him to come and heal us. We still need Him to come and free us.

I just imagine Him sending the Holy Spirit to touch us and to soften us so that we will ask for the very thing He wants to give to us. I feel He wants to give to me an understanding of leaning on Him. I think He is drawing me to a place of being fully dependent on Him, not on man or things or position or even comfort. I think He wants to reveal to me that I am fully found in Him...not in any false ideals that I have in this life.

So here I am again...it is agonizing to actually give Him the things that I offer to Him. The act of offering is much different than the act of obediently handing over things. Yet, even in that place of pain, I say to Him, come and have your way. I offer it all to you...give me the strength Jesus to hand over the things I offer to you.